(From Notes 1.24)
Determination robbed me of sleep
Obsession
Insecurity in the not knowing the basics
I don’t know how to crawl or even roll over
I can’t run
Frustration
Not a wink of sleep
Fear I ruined the beautiful pinks and oranges strewn with flowers from a matriarch’s closet.
Made 3
Took apart 3
Left in pieces
Radical acceptance this is not meant for now
Choose preservation
Patience
Sit here in the discomfort
And move to the next thing
Prep the house for SAV daddy’s shoot