- From Notes (Cancun 1.29.24) -

Here is the place holder, finding that accessing my website is a feat in itself let alone taking time away for me to write. So I put it here. Even if it doesn’t feel warrented to write. Just accomplish one entry per day. That will be enoungh.

This is the first day of nothing.

and I have anger brewing in me. Spilling over from the day prior. Lingering in every anticipated interaction awaiting me downstairs poolside. This is not for me. And yet, I find myself the center of all of it. My mind keeps ping ponging between how to get back up to this safe haven and how many times Ben needs to see me out in the world to be appropriate.

Avoidance.

of my deep seething anger

and

my husband’s disspointment.